Day 3

I started reading a book by Wayne Jacobsen called He Loves Me. It is a book about the relationship the Father wants with us. Not because He needs to but because He wants to. I have been listening to Wayne's tape series on the Power of the Cross. Visit his website www.lifestream.org. Why did I create this website? Because I was tired of living the lie that is pornography addiction. I have engaged in sex talk with women over the phone. I have masturbated looking at pornography and I have visited prostitutes. I no longer want this evil in my life. I have spend much time learning what the Bible says about believers and the relationship the Father desires with us. I am taking it day by day to see what the Father has for me.

This addiction has kept me single and many times lonely. When I was in my early twenties I can remember times I feared sleeping at night. Why? Because I couldn't stop masturbating. I was a believer but how could Father God love me when I would continue to view pornography and masturbate almost daily. I believed the lie. Father God knew what He was getting when he chose me. It is a daily process that will never be finished in this life. So quit trying to be perfect and live enjoying the love of the Father.

More to come...