Welcome to My World!

Welcome to my world. A world of deceiving myself. A world of finding my freedom in Jesus Christ and Him crucified. I have been trapped in pornography for almost 30 years. I have visited numerous prostitutes over the years. I have used phone sex to satisfied my lust. Nothing satisfies. The world is an empty place where people spend their time pursuing empty pursuits. Sex, sports and drinking are only some of the answers the world finds. I became involved with pornography when I was 13 years old. I would look at my brothers Playboy's and masturbate. I started masturbating when I was ten. Only because it felt good.

When I came to Christ I was 16 years old. I had also been involved with the occult deception. After I was saved the first deception I believed was that I had to live the perfect life to be accepted by Father God. A lie created by satan and carried by the Church. It took me until I was almost 40 before I learned that Father God accepted me for who I was not who I needed to be.

The goal of this blog is to talk about my life. The continuing problem I have with pornography and phone sex. An occasional whore. Why need somewhere I can bare my soul. I know that I am cleansed by the blood of Christ. I know it is a process that will not be finished until I die. I understand what needs to be done. But how is the question. I have learned much over the last year. Now I want to understand and apply it.